A Poem That I Had Forgotten About

Tonight, I pulled this poem out of somewhere inside of me.  From where exactly, I'm not sure.  I wrote it four years ago, then completely forgot about it; but tonight I started randomly quoting lines from it (inside my head, of course).  It's not super good or anything, it was just my thoughts at a point in time; and interestingly, my current thoughts are very similar to what I was feeling at the exact moment I wrote this.  Weird how life takes us in circles sometimes.


On Forgetting 


I have forgotten...
there is depth in your action.
I am in this place where thoughts fuzz
but when I look beyond the curtain, beyond everything,
I know you are there.
In that crevice where I shove you.
Expanding like frozen water.
Rocking me like a sleeping child.
And that is enough for me.
Good, faithful, and everything real.
You are greater.

You Might Think This is Really Weird

The last couple of weeks, I've been pretty sick.  For some reason or another (probably related to food allergies) my body was rejecting food.  Anytime I would eat something my body would simply say "Sorry, this stomach is out of order.  Please try again."  And then terrible things would happen.  I was, needless to say, very hungry, very unhappy, and very annoyed.

Well, I'm starting to feel better - but preparing food is still fairly exhausting.  Thankfully, (or... disgustingly... to those of you who may think this is where the story goes downhill) I had an epiphany while at the store yesterday.  I was going to buy butternut squash, peel it, cube it, bake it for an hour and mash it up; but THEN while looking for Epsom salts (oh, how I love thee) I stumbled upon the baby food aisle.  I saw organic butternut squash baby food and I thought to myself "Hmm... this is exactly what I was going to make for myself.  Why would I spend over an hour squashing up butternut squash when it's right here, already made?  You know... really, I would be a fool not to buy this."  Then I stood staring at it.  Then I bought it.  And I ate it.  And it was good.  So there.

Things I Want Thursday

Warning: In the following post, I may sound like a little bit of a winer.  I don't mean to sound that way.  Sometimes that's just how it comes out.

I have iPhone fever.  I've never really been "into" electronics; but then I married a web developer, and well... the nerdiness just kind of rubs off on you.  I've been so frustrated with my phone lately.  All it does is make calls... and who wants to do that?  Talk to people?  Yuck.
I want something snappy... something (shhh) sexy.  Something awesome.  I want a phone that has apps.  Apps that let me pretend I'm drinking beer... or that let me shoot a gun or light a match.  Apps that let me play games in which birds kill green pigs.  I want a phone that can predict that I am going to spell the word "congeal" in a text... instead of first guessing, for some reason, that I want to spell "Annie"...  (hello... it's not even the same amount of letters!).
Nope.  Nothing else will do.  I want a bona-fide-waste-my-time-heck-of-a-device Apple iPhone.

The practical part of me knows that it will probably just all be a waste of time, not to mention more money.  But the part of me that is ridiculously emotionally driven doesn't really care.  It's high time that I step into the future, bite the bullet, (wait a year until my contract expires) and just do it.

Okay... So What If I Do Suck at Blogging?

I really am terrible at this... but no excuses.  Last time I blogged, I said that I was going to post pictures celebrating 2010 and my first year of marriage.  Well, that didn't happen.  BUT, fortunately I have a kickin' husband who put together a awesome video for me for Valentine's Day this year.  I figured this was a much easier (though albeit quite a bit lazier) way of letting you all see snippets of our year.  It's okay if you don't watch.  I won't be offended.  It's pretty puke worthy.